The shit period is a tangle of black, red and blue. I am completely tangled up. There is no stability. Black: the dark times Red: the anger Blue: the sadness, the tears that were there then The cloud represents the anger that was there afterwards. The black lightning represents a very difficult event during that period. The scissors symbolize the feeling of betrayal against a green background of horror. It weighs heavily and sometimes less heavily. Hidden kilos: they are there but you don’t see them.